I've been seeing alot of confused and angry people lately. Granted, working in a very busy E.R. in a large city I will see a disproportionately higher percentage of people that are unbalanced or out of control, so my sense of it might be disproportionately higher than most "ordinary" people. Be that as it may, I have been seeing tensions mounting. People that I work with have been "losing it" more frequently lately, or so it seems to me. I've also noticed it within myself, wanting to "stand up for myself" against my perceived injustices against me. I so wanted to put a coworker "in her place" when she ordered me around like I was her minion slave, and took it to the Lord and told the Lord what I wanted to say to her...kinda "run it by Him"...sigh.
He told me to wait....
"But...But....no! There's so much I want to say, I want to tell her exactly how I feel so she'll know...."
and the thought came back: "Do you really believe that telling her these things will help her?"
.....me: "mutter, mutter, mumble....well, no, but....I'll feel better about it..."
Then the thought: "Do you REALLY think you will feel better about it?"
me: "Well....no...but....sigh, well, but....ok...I know You, Lord, handle things much better than I can....but can I say SOMETHING....?....sigh....no, I guess you're right, I better bite my tongue..."
But many around me aren't biting their tongues, but are lashing out whenever they feel stepped on.
I believe there is a revolution coming, and I personally believe that it is being orchestrated. That is just how my "conspiracy theory" mind works, lol...I won't be able to stop it. I can refuse to participate in it, in God's strength.
Here is a video clip that gives just a tiny part of the game that is being played by tptb, the game is on the battlefield of our minds:
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
The peace Jesus gives is different from the peace the world offers to us. The peace of the world is an illusion, because Jesus said there will always be "wars and rumours of wars". The peace Jesus gives defies understanding. His peace doesn't rely on getting what we want, or having things always go the way we want them to. His peace doesn't depend on me "having my cake and eating it too". His peace is given in spite of any attacks, perceived or real, against me. His peace is dependent on Him, and His virtues, not on mine and the lack of my virtues (thankfully). He keeps me in the eye of the storm, while trouble rages all around me, I can still be at peace, in Him.
Woman in a Wheat Field